the marionette's
romance

“ If God is for us , who can be against us . ”

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When I was younger everything seemed different . Like more magical , big , adventurous , mysterious and whatsoever .
I didn't understand why there was a need to switch off the television , lights , fan or close the refrigerator when there wasn't a need for it , I always got scolded without knowing the proper reason until I grew older . My mentality was that electricity would still be used when it's on .

Due to childlike innocence , I used to believe in nearly everything people say , well , naive . Like when I looked out of my window and see those cargo thingy and asked my grandpa what it was , he said that they were giraffes and I happily believed it until I was primary 3 . Though I felt very blessed for a fact that I do not need to visit the zoo just to see giraffes . (They really looked like giraffes..) *look is past tense .
I used to think that cotton candy , soft toys , cushions and such were made of the clouds in the sky . I believed in Santa Claus and the Tooth Fairy . Unfortunately I was made to believe that ghost exist and I still do .
Fortunately enough as well , I believed that God exist , only when I was young , I portrayed God as Buddha , GuanYin and Jesus . -.-

There were also many things that I used to not understand . Then I was always dying to know why or how or what , etc.. In kindergarten , I asked my friend why was he called ahbunehneh and he got really sad .
Of course now , I do wish that at times I can get back the 'misunderstanding' in certain areas in life . In lay man's term , simple-minded . Not absent-minded .
Oooh ! And I remembered I could forget about negative things easily , like , nothing to worry about !

And also , I could turn nearly anything into an adventure ! With little knowledge of the outside world , everything seems to be a mystery .
And I would imagine all sorts of rubbish . Ohoh ! And I loved to play pretend . (Y)

How I wish I was much younger again...
Innocence.. Before I was exposed to this worn out , broken and cruel world .


If I had a choice , I'd choose not to love . Because it's so fucking painful . FUCK LOVE .