the marionette's
romance

“ If God is for us , who can be against us . ”

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Alright ! Everything is super messy now !
I need to get my priorities right !
Why the heck do I get distracted so freaking easily !?

Everything now is simply mad sickening .
I have no idea what the heck is my priority , like it keeps changing ! Yes , change is a constant in life and it's for the better . Unfortunately this change is not good ! Because it's like totally going against being consistent .
OMG , yes , consistency !
I am totally not consistent . One moment I'm up and the next I'm on the ground . This might explain why I am totally random ; dramatic moodswings .

My motivation to study is definitely inconsistent !
ARGH , Zoe MUST do well for her N'levels please !! D:
Not only that , I get distracted just way too easily . That's another reason for my procrastination .
Also , after I prioritised studying and aiming my goals for doing well , I get all these stress which is rather unnecessary .
Yes , I know that a little stress is good as it pushes and kinda disciplines you but I cannot handle stress ! I will dramatise the entire situation which will complicate and worsens everything and ultimately going crazy and totally not productive .

LIKE OMG WHAT SHOULD I DO WITH MYSELF SERIOUSLY .
I FEEL SO FREAKING IRRITATED AT MYSELF FOR BEING SO IRRITATING AND FATTENING .

Aaaaaahhh !!! There's so many things I wanna do . OMG .
FEELS LIKE INSOMNIA + DISTURBIA .
精神分裂 . (Y)


Get well soon hubby . WE ARE GAY ! :D



Hey love .

You're always making me worried .
Every night and day with that stupid mistress of yours !
I was dumbfounded upon receiving the news that you got into an accident again .
This is why I worry , because I knew something like this would happen again , judging by your character .
The moment I heard your voice in pain when I called you after your accident , my heartwrenched . And I told dad because I didn't know what to do .
I really have to thank my superdaddy a maximumz for helping baby and rainey out .

Today , upon seeing you , I felt another punched in my heart again .
You were in pain , bandaged , high fever , shivering , weak and all , I totally .... Idk how to explain but I was simply in pain as well .
You were so stubborn , refusing to see doctor . So all I could do was to use the traditional method to subside the fever of yours and to be there for you .
You know how much I really want to scream , cry and kneel down just to ask you to see a doctor ? I know damn drama please .
Of course , thanks to Sharon sister who talked to me and that period of time did made me chill .

I didn't bear to leave you but I eventually did .

I dunt want to control you too much , if you really insist on riding the bike , then go ahead .

Please note that I love you .
Today I felt like I died a little . Like health decrease you know in those games ?


You shall never see my cry . ;)



Hey love .
I'm sorry for all the shit yesterday .
I just wanted your attention so badly and all this distress I feel inside of me .
Like missing you so badly . Like so 辛苦 .
And this first time I actually feel so unimportant .

But it's okay ! :D
I will do my very best as your wife .
I want to be more understand you more ! I want to be with you all the time ! I want to support you through your days ! I want to stick with you through thick and thin ! I want to lie beside you and talk for hours ! I want to hold you in my arms like forever ! I want to be there for you always ! I want to be the one you think of the first thing in the morning ! I want to make you really proud ! I want to be someone you really long for ! I want to be your best girlfriend ! I want to work with you for your dreams ! I want to kiss you daily ! I want to make you happy every moment you're with me ! I want to escape with you to another place only for us ! I want to spend as long as I can with you ! I want to die with you ! I want to give you everything you'll need ! I want to be as one with you ! I want to cook for you ! I want to be the one you'll turn to in times of trouble ! I want to sacrifice for you ! I want to be your one and only ! I want to be all you'll ever need !
I WANT YOU .
And not only do I want , I shall and I will .

My goal is to be the best Mrs Goh you've ever known ! :D
Yes , until I reach that , not I am not good enough .


Lastly , I love you hubby .
More than you think how much I do .



Hello . It's the 26th today .
I find this date rather amusing .

This is how I feel .
I feel this rush of humour in my bloodstream and yet it's outwardly inexpressive .
I'll end up producing a sort of fake laughter and a rather strained one .
Deep down inside , there's somehow a little piece of bleakness attached to every bit of humour I'm feeling .
The laughter seems hollow as it comes out of my mouth .
Ironically speaking , it feels like a dejected laughter .

I did my best to explain how I laugh at situations like this or upon seeing you .
I have no idea what you did , but I am assertive upon the fact that you're literally a walking joke in my eyes .
Just by catching a glance at you can bring me to laughter , staring at you might just make me guffaw to death .

But ohwell , ignorance to this . ;)


Other than that , maybe I've been expecting too much ?
I know I am not good enough . But I am trying my best .
I still need some love .
And note , if I slip away , it's just because you didn't hold me tight .
I am human . I get tired .

HAHAHA .



Alright , that caption for my photo is a little lame . Well , I am .
So it's about 4am now and I'm blogging mad random stuffs . ;)
I am SOOO suppose to be sleeping right now because this is not good for me !
Like so unhealthy please .

Okay , back to the main topic of my post today .
The title of my post "I HATE MY MISTRESS" , is rather self-explanatory .

My husband has a mistress .
Don't get me wrong , my hubby didn't exactly cheat on me .
After all , I have got the best hubby ever ! Madloves !! :D
Hubby's mistress is this stupid black Honda NSR SP .

Before this stupid bike came along , 50% of hub's mind is filled with bikes . But I think it's more . Like no space for me.. But it's okay , maybe baby will think of my more after getting the bike
Now , after owning the bike , I have to constantly worry because this stupid husband loves to race . OMG .
Madhates !!!! ARGH !!!
I will be just get mad worried especially at night . ;(

I HATE BIKES . ARGH !! :'(
STUPID ! FYVM SP !! -'-


Just hold me tight , stay by my side and let me be the one who calls you baby all the time .



Okay . Had an advance birthday celebration for Yuwen BFFL with Joycelyn Furball ! :)
Ate at MOF and gave her a translucent mug with our photo on it and then mum gave her a bra handphone strap !
Alright , I love it when the 3 of us go out together !
The sort of happiness we get is different ! :)
I dunt know how to explain it but it's just different .
Everything is about us being happy . Nothing else !

Mad awesome !


I will be blogging more soon .
I love baby !



Hey w406 .

It's been awesome ! For the past 2 years and lazytocount months .
Gosh , I can totally say that time passed really fast !
I remembered the first time I got invited to church during Easter by my bestaye , Wanyi , when I was still in the midst of darkness . Like my suicidal phrase of life .
Yes , you guys should know how repulsive I was back then .
And truly I caused a hell lota trouble for the older members there . Like Weiren , Enyun , Yaozhong , Caspia etcetc.. And people like Qiming , Jingyuan , Sunthari and the rest continued to be there to shower me with their love and care .
Not only did the love of God touched me , the amount of love w406 poured freely upon me was ... WOW . That's why I stayed .
And of course , from then on my life continued to change for the better !
Seriously , where I am now and where I was then is a complete O_O !! (Y)
Growing up from Inspire camp to Prayer Meetings to Asia Conference !
One of the best decisions I've made in life , that was to become a Christian .

Thank you w406 for all the wonderful memories , help , love , care and presence .
Indeed , you guys made a major impact in my life ! :) , you dunt know how much and I also dunt know how much to put in words . A LOT 就对了 !!

I've seen how w406 grew for the past years and OMG , I never knew we'll come this far and even multiply !
Although I'd miss everything about w406 , I know the change will be for the better !

Goodbye w406 . Hello w539 . ♥

I , Zoe Perry Da'Love Choo DeeDee Shuyi , take you , Mohammad Aladdin Goh Bin Wee Kastari Ling , to be my hubby , to have and to hold , for better , for worse , for richer , for poorer , in sickness and in health , until death us do part .

See that ? Love , we upgrade already ! :D
I am your wife and you are my husband !

Today , I woke up with an expectancy and the "I WANT BABY" feeling . But I only found the situation shortchanged .
Perhaps it's due to PMS or something , I felt dramatically disappointed .
I was kinda over-reacting and yes , being overly sensitive because love didn't send me a good morning message .
So I was like , *ignores* then *sleeps* !
Yeah , I had a terrible dream but it still wasn't considered nightmare . I totally have no peace in my heart ! Like fear , anxiety ?
Then I woke up and checked my phone and found that love was angry ! :(
I was thinking a lot then , also , I had this fear of getting heartbroken again .
Then I thought that if I wanted to prevent anything , I should leave first .
And then... I cannot let go .
That's when I realised , and I've decided I've got to hold on .

So love , let's keep holding on .
We'll make it through and overcome the trials that come against us .

I won't let you go . Unless you want to be free .






Dear Love .

I don't know what to say . I just know that , I love you .
Yeap ! Just as simple as that , I'm simply in love with you .
And our love shall stand strong ! :D
We'll overcome the obstacles that'll come our way , stand firm together in the midst of tribulations and most importantly , we'll keep holding onto each other and never let go .
Let's be as one .

I know that my time restrictions are already a hindrance .
But I'll spend as much time with you okay !!! Because I want to .
And I'll do my best to be the best girlfriend you've ever had !! :)
Tell me just what to do okay ?

I LOVE YOU .

ZCSY (M) GWL ! ♥

Hey Love ! :)

Now how should I start .
Alright , I dunt know how to start because I have no idea where it all began .
Or maybe it started with a kiss ? Like sexciting .

Ohwell , now that we're married , you have no choice but to maintain me dah !
Why ? BECAUSE I AM YOUR WIFE . ;p
Muahahahahahaa !!

Okay . So I shall do a list on HOW TO MAINTAIN ZOE .
Here it goes !

1. Honesty .
Yes . Honesty is after all the best security .
I need you to protect me inside out !
And it's about building trust .

2. Affection .
THIS IS A MUST . I want loads of hugs and kisses everyday !
Hug me until your muscles are cramp and kiss me until your lips are swollen .

3. Attention .
I must admit I am a totally attention-lover . I LOVE ATTENTION .
So yes , you must give me super dumb loads of attention !!
Like be my paparazzi ! :D

4. Care .
Show me some concern . Be there for me . Show it okay ?
But please dunt be too overly concern for me as well .
Like tell me not to walk under the tree in case a branch drops on my head ?

5. Affirmation .
Tell me how much you love me constantly ! I just NEED to know .
Compliments works for me too !

6. Do sweet things .
I'd like it when you send me goodmorning and goodnight messages . Piggyback me . Hug me from behind . Peck me . Surprise me with small gifts . Whisper you love me .

7. Be funny .
But not stupid or overboard jokes .

MOST IMPORTANTLY . Love me only . Love me for who I am .


I know I'm really high-maintanance . But I'm just stating it ! :x
Because you dunt have to be perfect .

Also , I'm very sensitive , fickle-minded , stubborn , short-tempered , crazy , nonsensical , etc...


Baby , are you up for it ? :)
Let's start our journey . And it's not about the distance of this journey , but the quality of it .

I love you .

Hello . I'm lying on my bed blogging about some rubbish .
Still I know and I know that everything is in God's hands .
And there're some things which aren't within our power to control or change .
Instead of being some loser whinning about why are things like this are happening , I should just trust God as well as seek for forgiveness . And the heart of repentance too .
Whatever is happening , I trust that God knows the best for me .
As for now , I know that's all I can do .

I am a totally disobedient child .
And man am I ashamed .

Sometimes , I really hope that I am not wired in a crooked way .
So that things would also be simpler for me .
Still , I shall be a cleaver and cling onto the Word .

I shall come forth as gold as long as I don't give up .
Let me keep on keeping on .


And baby let's enjoy every moment we have together .



Hey love ! ♥
Today I had an awesome day because I've had a whole new experience today !
It's was rather fun and thank God I'm still in one piece .
Man ! It was exciting .
A couple of near death experiences today . (Y)

There's this moment before where you know that the situation was about to occur .
What I felt was , "That's it !" , and I closed my eyes .
Before that , I was hugging love tightly . And the next moment I 四脚朝天 !
I cannot comprehend this sort of feeling .
But it's something like , "Baby , we can die together ." , and neither of us has to suffer to see each other die right in one another's presence and what's more , the grievance of the death of your beloved .

Of course I knew that we wouldn't die , only we might .
Yes . Thank God for blessing us . ♥


I am taking a hell lota risks recently . I seriously need to withdraw from pushing my luck too hard .
Zoe needs to prioritise God !! RAWR !!!

Lastly , I love baby .
In good times and bad times .
For better or for worse .
Baby , we're invincible ! ♥



Hey Baby . ;)

I've found you again .
I thought that I would never find another love .

Could it be because of the striking resemblance in your characteristics ?
Wasn't kissing a very common and fun thing to me ?
Why is it that my heart raced madly when you first kissed me ?
Maybe it's due to my desperation out of loneliness and yet it couldn't be .

And boy did I spiralled into serious debates within my thoughts .
Why is it that I would like you of all people ?
I know for sure that this is definitely mad risky but I went on with it .
Why did I do it ? Seriously , I had no idea .
I never thought that I would be with you . And that might be just the perfect reason why .

I knew that none of this would ever be worth the risk .
But , you , are the only exception .
And I know for sure I'm falling fast , in love with you .
More and more each day .

I miss you more each moment you're not around me .
I love you more each moment you spent with me .

And I'm on my way to believing .
Please hold me tight . Please don't let me go .

Yours faithfully ,
Zoee :)



I had a doll whose heart glows for me .
I showered my doll with loads of love and care everyday .
The glow always reacted to me and it can affect me a lot , of course , it made feel like the luckiest girl in the world .
This doll was more than a friend to me .
Everyday I ranted to it , sometimes I get so angry I'd throw this doll around .
Until one day , the glow suddenly died .
It's been more than a hundred day , I must know that this glow is gone forever in this doll .

I'm not looking for another doll . Neither am I looking for another heart that glows .
I am finding the same sort of glow that left my doll .

And I might have found it ?
But what if this doll belongs to someone else , am I suppose to snatch it ?

Hello beautiful people ! :)
Once again , I'm here to rant .

Just recently , I stepped into a humongous pile of dung .
Let's say I was manipulated by my own foolishness caused by some bad romance I experienced .
It's as if I've been bewitched ? Not exactly bewitched too tho , but yeah , I just put it in these words .

And yes , I do admit . I am a complete retard/idiot/stupid or whatever .
.. , I may be really stupid , but I am not THAT stupid .


With lovessssssssssssss ! :D