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Ranting rubbish Wednesday, June 30, 2010 / 11:30 PM

Hey guys ! I'm here to rant again .

Once again , if you guys had followed me on Twitter , you would have think that I'm gonna post about suitors in comparison with debtors .
Ohwell , I just feel like ranting .

AND YOU KNOW WHAT I WANT TO RANT !?

I WANT TO SLEEP !!!


kthxbye .

Baik baik sayang . Monday, June 28, 2010 / 10:14 PM



Aku tak ingin kau menangis bersedih
Sudahi air mata darimu
Yang aku ingin arti hadir diriku
Kan menghapus dukamu sayang

Karena bagiku kau kehormatanku
Dengarkan dengarkan aku

Hanya satu pintaku untukmu dan hidupku
Baik baik sayang ada aku untukmu
Hanya satu pintaku di siang dan malammu
Baik baik sayang karna aku untukmu

Semua keinginan akan aku lakukan
Sekuat semampuku sayang

Karena bagiku kau kehormatanku
Dengarkan dengarkan aku

Hanya satu pintaku untukmu dan hidupku
Baik baik sayang ada aku untukmu
Hanya satu pintaku di siang dan malammu
Baik baik sayang karna aku untukmu

Dear Love . Sunday, June 27, 2010 / 10:37 PM

Hello .

There is a girl who is deeply in love with you , but yet she is nothing to you .
She haven't exactly reached the friend status in your life but at least you don't see her as a monster anymore .
She wants to be the one that cheers you up when you're sad .
She wants to be the one that you would turn to when you're lost .
She wants to be the one that stands with you through all your trials .
She wants to be the one that shields you from hurtful things .
She wants to be the one that comforts you when you feel uneasy .
She wants to be everything you would need .
She is your guardian angel watching out for you .
And she will brighten up your day even when she cannot brighten up her own .

With love .

OMGWTFLMAO Saturday, June 26, 2010 / 11:09 PM


I totally LOL at this for quite some time .


孝顺 . Thursday, June 24, 2010 / 3:46 PM



Alright , I saw this video on Wanyi's blog and I decided to share it with the rest of you !
And wapiang , MCYS not part of this lor , still put Touching Hearts Changing Lives or whatever .

It's a touching video tho I didn't cry at all .

Girl girl hey you go girl ! / 2:53 AM

Alright , so today I shall continue to do a little bit of ranting .
Like some issues you've got to know about a girl .

For females , in general from my experiences , we tend to think so much we create so much stress for ourselves .
Like we can worry about practically anything there is to worry about !
And yes , it's a choice to think this way .

You know , sometimes when a certain thing happens and you start thinking and you get all lost , stress , worried and whatsoever ? It's an unexplainable feeling .
Even as someone ask you what's wrong , it's really hard to elaborate . Although you've got a whole chunk of rubbish inside of you .
I bet some of you knows how that feels .

As for what has happened , I'm not saying that I have all the rights to reprimand or such but I'm just trying to state my viewpoint as a mutual friend .
How did we even arrive to this shituation ? Being overly concerned about one another ?
About the going crazy part , I totally understand , but , can't you see before anything was well clarified , dissension was already among us ?
Yet , there's no one to blame , because I believe no one actually had the intention of sowing discord in this friendship . One thing's for sure , neither of us is an antagonist within this friendship of ours .
Look at the amount if irony right now .

Things shouldn't be this complicating . It shouldn't be like this .
Couple of days ago we were still mad awesome friends ! Celebrating my birthday ? :)
Remember our K-session ? Dancing never seemed so fun !
You guys are totally another group of totally awesome friends whom I truly love and trust a hell lot .
And if you fucking think it's your presence that ruined everything , you're so damn wrong .
SO DAMN WRONG PLEASE .
But even if so , I should be the one saying that I ruined everything . Like seriously .

Sometimes , I find that we're so damn good it becomes a problem .
I think we tried too hard .


Whatever it is , let's be friends forever ! :D
Because you guys are one of the best friends I've ever found !!
And I love you sisters .


Just say only Tuesday, June 22, 2010 / 9:36 PM

Okay , I'm a rather straightforward person myself , thus , I don't really mind if you were to tell me things you don't like about me .
I mean , I totally need self-improvements . Like talk serious .
So guys , if you have any issues with me , PLEASE TELL ME .
Don't act like everything is alright and I simply continue to do the things that you don't like and one fine day you couldn't take it and the next moment we're not friends .
And don't say as if what I was suppose to know what I was doing is wrong . Like please , I don't share your brain and your thoughts .
Like yah , I'm sensitive but I didn't say that I was that intelligent as well .
How do you expect me to know when you don't even tell me anything at all !

Yes , don't be afraid to hurt my feelings . I can change and learn better because it hurts ! HA !
And if you actually did dropped me hints about some of your issues with me and I didn't catch it , just tell me.. It would be rather obvious if I didn't catch your hint because I'm a rather reactive person .
Don't like sua sua sua at there diam diam then one day just pour everything out and just left me wondering . Seriously , it's damn irritating .

I'm not trying to be like hypocritical or whatsoever since I also understand the risk in the relationship if you were to be overly critical to your friend and like hurt him/her like too deeply .
If you wanted a friend as a middle-person to convey such message it's absolutely fine . But the thing that irks me is that you have issues with me , you go around telling everyone else but me . The worst part is that you would act like everything is totally fine .
Yes , it's two different things .

Yeah , so actually I blogged in general , I have no intention at all to shoot anyone in particular .
You've got to agree that there are some people around us that are like that , right ?
Also , this post is to create an awareness that you can actually rest assure and tell me my bad points .

Other than your issues with my appearance and other things that I can't change , but I'll still try .

I never sleep ah ! Monday, June 21, 2010 / 11:39 PM

Okay . Just gonna do a quick blog !

Alright . I totally like didn't sleep since yesterday's yesterday ? Then my pimples like worsen only .
I like , lied on the bed for 4 freaking hours ! Until my bed was mad hot .
Then I finally like nua-ed till 6am and I went to jog and then eat breakfast and then play soccer till about 7.45am .
Then I went home to get ready for school and then halfway through class I got kicked out and yeah , went home , napped for like less than an hour and I prepare to meet YL MJ and YW at cine .
I was mad tired can . Bought salad .
Then we like decided to watch Toy Story 3 because Kbox was overpriced .
The movie was mad awesome !!!!!!! Like I nearly cried in it !? But I tahan hor .
Yes , Toy Story 3 is a must catch movie !!! :)
So after movie they went to get icecream while I meetups w Cheryl for guitar class .
Playplayplay then bought fries and some clothes for dad and friend and went to eat some rice at Maxwell then went home .
So at home there were some disputes between mum and I . And it's been a long time since I've heard her use so much vulgarities at once .
But it's my fault tho , for not explaining things and taking her for granted .
She like hide my phone but I managed to find it like I've always did .

So yeahhh , I really need to lose weight . FAT .

The marionette's romance . Sunday, June 20, 2010 / 4:25 AM

I wish...


A little girl picked up a marionette by a little toys store down the street .
She played with the marionette and threw it away because she got bored .
Soon after , the little girl laid her eyes on another doll .
And this doll belongs to a friend of hers .

Little girl . Please open your eyes .
Your marionette loves you . She belongs to you .
Why do you want a doll that belongs to someone else and not your own toy ?
Am I less fun to play with ? :(

Pull my strings just for a thrill . - Your Guardian Angel .

永远的朋友 Saturday, June 19, 2010 / 2:49 AM


I like the lyrics .

祝我生日快乐 / 12:17 AM


Dear Zoe , it's your birthday .
You're born to love and you did a great job .
I bet you're happy .
Hope that your wish will come true .


Okay , where should I begin .
It was about a quater before 12 and man , I was in a mad melancholy state .
I didn't wanted to celebrate my birthday at all .
So I was like showering ? And I finished bathing at about 11.59pm when I updated my facebook status and tweeted people not to wish me happy birthday .

The clock strucked 12 , Meijuan was the first to wish me via BBM . Then princess replied my 'donotwishmehappybirthday' tweet , happy birthday . 怪懒 maximumz .
I placed my dirty clothes in the kitchen and the doorbell rang .
WANYI , YUWEN AND JOYCELYN APPEARED AND STARTED SINGING HAPPY BIRTHDAY WITH SOME STRAWBERRY MILK TEA ICECREAM CAKE(Got 兰梅 and 草莓 and biscuit-based) !! ♥
Then I was like , O_O and :O and !!!!! and -O- and (OHMYGAWD) .
Okay , I totally don't know how to explain the state of bewilderment I was in , but I can tell you I couldn't feel my face at all . Like talk serious .
It was mad pleasant surprise and I had a very sudden and drastic change of mood .
Seriously , when my 3 bestfriends surprised me , I wanted to cry or faint or scream or kill people but I was just stunned ! O_O
And I literally spent the next one hour OMG-ing . Saying nothing other than OH MY GAWD .

Yeah , they totally gave me the best birthday surprise so far . Mad thanks to them !! ♥♥
The next thing I knew was that I was flooded w sms , tweets and facebook notifications .

Then.. Cut cake , take photo , smile like idiot , blahblah , GAVE ME MAD AWESOME PRESENTS THAT MAD ME MAD TOUCHED and BESTAYE went home while BOYFRIEND and FURBALL sleepover ! :)
But halfway I toh , like tired only .

Then I wake up Joycelyn disappear hor ! I like panicked a few seconds only .
Because you know , the surprise macam natural diasater , totally unexpected , so like , trama 有没有 ? (It's a bad description but I like)
And I thought my gay boyfriend gone too but in the end she wrapped herself in my blanket and I thought she's another one of my bloster only . IDIOT .

Alright , then I went to meet Wanyi in the afternoon after lunch-ing w Yuwen at my house .
So it was my birthday and I decided to wear a little more appealing but I think like abit 夸张 . And I totally regretted my outfit .
So I went to ION w my BFFFF and nearly everyone who walked passed bio-ed me up and down .
I FELT SO PARANOID !! I totally lost my mood for shopping and I decided to dine at one corner to hide from everyone else ! ARGH . I was TOO stunning . -.-
And I walked for very long with my bloody heels ! ARGH . My feet like change colour ? ._.

Then I finally got to eat bakuteh w Wanyi ! ♥ . It was dragged from about years ago ?
I remembered it was my uglybetty 时代 when we planned .

After I met up w some zone members I went off to find furball , dajie and carlson .
Walked around and dad fetched me home .
THEN HE BOUGHT A FREAKISHLY HUGE CHOCOLATE CAKE , BAH KUA AND SUSHI . OMG .
Then I ate abit of each . HAHA . Mad bloated .

Wanyi ended my birthday with me while singing 永远的朋友 which is a dumb sad song.... Ironic , and last well wishes once again from Joycelyn and Yuwen via fb comment and sms .


Finally , a shoutout to all the people that wished me a happy birthday because it brought me joy .
My birthday was a total surprise . Never knew people would do these for me . Never knew so many people would wish me .
Thanks all of you , thank you . ;')

Thank God . It's my birthday .

Throughout this bloody birthday of mine , I was only thinking of you .
I wondered what went wrong , did I made you angry again ? I wanted you so damn badly .
My birthday would have been perfect .
Fuck you . Because I love you so damn very much .

The Karate Kid ! Thursday, June 17, 2010 / 8:54 PM



Hey guys !
Just watched The Karate Kid today w the double P's(Wilson and Oswin) aka penguin and princess respectively . And I can yes , that movie was mad awesome !
If I'm not wrong , it's the remake of The Karate Kid that came out in 1984 that was an instant hit ? ._.

I still want to watch Nanny Mcphee and the Big Bang , Sex and the City 2 , Shrek Forever After and Toy Story 3 !
OMGOMGOMG .

Yahh , so today was still not bad .
After that went to play mahjong w Weeling , Suwen and Wilson .

FUCKTARD Wednesday, June 16, 2010 / 1:40 AM

Stupidity and self-centeredness . What's more , disobedience .
I brought this upon myself once again .
There's no one to blame but myself .

I cannot carry this on anymore . No more already .
Zoe please wake up lur pleaseeeeeeeeee !!!! :'(

I need to do what is right . Since I'm old enough and I actually know what is right , by common sense .



I MUST COUNT ON GOD . Despite how much I hate this life now .

A picture speaks a thousand words . Tuesday, June 15, 2010 / 1:06 AM






I think these pictures are self-explanatory sarcasms .
:)

Put me in the dark Monday, June 14, 2010 / 1:04 AM

Purchase your glow-in-dark hearts now ! :D
As long as there is love , there is hope .
Like the light that shines in the darkness .
Can't you see ? My heart glows in the midst of darkness .


Alright the above was just a whole chunk of nonsense !
But ain't that picture cute ? :)

Pst. Phil Pringle said that happiness is being contented .
And to be contented at everything I have in life . Yes , count your blessings .
As for me , I'm a blessed child .
I'm always blessed by God . (Y) , mad awesome ! :)

We can all be happy . It's an option .
Just like having the choice to think positive .
Like it's not easy trying to appreciate the annoying lil sibling of yours or mad nosy parents ?
But go ahead and be happy .



I think I'm happy ? Yes . I am .
I haven't lost everything even though I thought I did .

"Rejoice in the Lord always and again I say , rejoice ." - Philippians 4:4

Sunday, June 13, 2010 / 5:40 PM


Yes . I so fucking do .

Next ink taken into considerations . / 1:57 PM

love .

I shall get a Romans 8:31 there .

I want to get this on my calves .

This is mad cool .


There's loads more that I've browsed but I lazy to put all of them up .
Totally head for fuckyeahtattoos.tumblr.com for more !! :D

I'm loving that heart on my finger . And I am going to touch-up my FAITH in my lips .

And I realised the more I inked the worse it gets , like the star at my inner ankle .
There's no meaning to it other than stupidity and impulse .
Although I do like stars !
I am gonna do 'blessed' , 'love' , bible verses and quotes in life .

I'm gonna ink stories . Not exactly art .
I want to be a book that tells others my own story on my own skin .
Than be a 'foolscap for other people to scribbled' - WilsonSYT .

Happiness . / 1:46 AM

Today , or more like yesterday , Pst. Phil Pringle came to our church to preach ! :)
We had a totally mad awesome sermon .

Okay , I don't know my wish , I feel so lost .

Day out w Meijuan , Darren and Yanling ! Friday, June 11, 2010 / 12:31 PM

One of the best verses in the Bible ! :)

Okay , went out w Meijuan , Yanling and Darren yesterday !
Alright , I was late again . HOWEVER , I IMPROVED A WHOLE LOT . Like late 20min ?
Then I was like mad slow because I was wearing heels ! I gey ba lan from 2inch jump to 4inch .
And I totally wobbled on the bus please !! Then like all eyes on me in the center of a ring just like a circus ~

Yeah and so I met the peeps at tanjong pagar .
I was abit dumb to actually wear my heels out where I can actually wear my slippers and change to heels later .
My feet started to hurt already , so I protested to cab to Amoy Street 22 . I paid for the cab fare . $2.80 .
The taxi uncle told me 300m is ver far , okay to cab . (Y) ; good thing I LOVE SARCASM .

Okay , reached The Studio . Makeup , hairdo.. Then Yanling and I nua-ed at the changing room .
So we take photo despite the incredibly tiny and insignificant sign at the corner that says "No Photography" .

P.S , sorry if the photos are not exactly good quality . BB .


Mother . I look fat here .

Yanling ! :)

...

CLASS !

拿被 !

嚼bin .

Look at Yanling man .



Alright , after photoshoot we went to eat BK @ Central and then YL went home because of her mother lah .
So MJ , D and I nua by the river at clarke quay then we bought Barokes and Anchor .
I can say Barokes tasted better than I thought , like I thought it wouldn't be as good if it's in a can .
So we chatted about <3 , x , bi ? Again .

Then the terror began when I dragged and mixed both drinks .
OMG , I can usually hold it better than other girls ? But ytd just toh !

I totally d-texted a lot of people . Mad sorry for my nonsense .


Fuck the boss dunt let me into Azzura .
FUCK HIM I HELPED HIM SELL SO MANY TICKETS PLEASE .

Going to meet Clare soon ! :)

I loved you and became lunatic . / 10:03 AM

I see the light, oh what a light
And I am sober
All that you served to me
No longer will I drink it in
I took the time to think it over
I see the you that I never knew
Now it's finally sinking in
I am sober



Because of my stupidity , I ruined everything myself . Again .
Sorry for irritating you .
And , how can I even call you when I'm a sober when....
you don't even want me .

I choose to let you go , because I love you .
One day you'll see , how much I actually love you . One day .


It's Noey's birthday ! Wednesday, June 9, 2010 / 11:40 PM

Hey guys !
It's Noey's birthday today and I had a hell lota fun at his chalet and BBQ !! :D

Alright , meetups w Kenton boy and headed to downtown east .
I had a super warm welcome by all of them can and freaking hell !! I entered and I freaking caught dumb loads of eyecandy !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And Nicholas super duper extremely cute !! I thought he was an 11yo w abs and it turns out he's 14 . Kenton threw him and spinned him in the air . Madloves !!
I was mad happy can ! Plus they all talk to me leh !!! ME !!!! (Y) , except one cpl (N)
I think it's because they all thought Im Kenton's girlfriend .
And I had a lot of common friends w Dawn and Vikki !! They're mad hyper , lovessss .
THEN TIME PASSED SO FAST .
Mad entertaining and fun . We got extra BBQ food from the neighbouring people too . HAHA .
Then Kenton sent me off .

Made new friends .
I CANNOT FIND THEIR FACEBOOK LAH WARAO !!!!!!! ANGRY .


And another eyecandy randomly chat with me . OMG HE LOOKS LIKE JIAXIN !

Mad fabulous buys with Furball / 1:18 PM

Alright , since I have nothing to blog about I shall blog about my entire day yesterday shopping with my beloved furball !
As requested by FWhyWhyWhy !! :)

Okay , I was like totally reluctant to wake up for shopping .
Firstly , I slept at a mad 'early' time and I woke up with a mad sabai weather can !
But OMG cannot , it's GSS and it's tuesday and I've promised furball already .

I tell you I was mad kanjiong can !?
Thus , I decided to multi-task which was something I was really bad at .
Smoke and bathe at the same time and halfway water kena ciggy and the entire stick gone .
But it's okay , so I chiongchiongchiong as if chiongster would die man !
And if you've seen my tweets I was mad pissed with the bus 855 can !? I waited for 28min until the bus came and this driver still dunt want to speed you know ?!?!! 怪懒 please .

Then reached and met furball then chiong lunch at her house there then cab to town !
*takes a deep breath*
FEP and bought a white long-sleeved top w a big black ribbon from Insider and fur bought her Pink Romance at a mad cheap price , then Wisma biobiobio , then 313 jiakjiakjiak and bought a black denim jumper from Mila and a pair of mad chio heels from Anna Nucci while fur bought shorts , then Heeren biobio and fur bought her clothes and bag from Fourskin and Punkstar , then ION and bought my ripped leggings then Shaw's Starbucks !!
*phew*
Then dad sent fur to her house and she go meet her friends ~~~

And I reached home with a home-sweet-home feeling !
Because we literally chiong the whole day man . Madloves .
And dad went to collect my jumper for me because I forgot to take.....


Oooh well . Chatting w Melissa now and..
GOT TO GO , I am suppose to meet Kenton at 1pm ? But now...

*Transform* - KANJIONG SPIDER !!!!

I am lost / 2:06 AM

I need to change .
I am such a contradiction .
I am lost .
I have no idea what to do .
Isn't this a little unfair ?

God . No more running wild for me .
I want to be a full-time worker .
Let me do what's right and what I'm suppose to do .

I have no authority at all . Tuesday, June 8, 2010 / 3:59 AM

.. I love you ? Is it ?


Nothing is within my control . They're all under God's control .
It seems as if I've entered into a surreal side of this world .
What am I suppose to do ?
Sometimes I really wish that some laws of the Bible would change .

How am I suppose to be happy ?
When all I ever wanted , it comes with a price .
It does .
A pinch of happiness with a huge burden of stress and fear .
This isn't fair .

What is wrong with me .
Dear God . I could really do with some help .
Would You change and cleanse this heart of mine ?


It seems as if I've let myself become a toy of Lucifer .
What can I do .

What should I do ? / 3:11 AM


Sweetest Devotion . I am proud to be a City Harvester . Monday, June 7, 2010 / 1:21 PM

Recently . I have been a totally moron .
NO IT'S NOT BECAUSE I CONTRIBUTED TO THE $130million BUILDING FUNDS . (In fact I am proud I gave)
But it's because I am totally blinded by my own selfish desires and grief .
I am living in agony everyday . Nearly every moment .
Why can't I see what's more important ? I am being so self-centered and not God-centered .
How can I pray for God to take away my life ? Can't I see what amazing plans God has laid out for me ? My destiny .
But I feel like a total contradiction due to my actions .

I think now more than ever I should stick with the members of the church .
My w406 brothers and sisters ! :)
I shouldn't really care about that love .
I want to be more devoted to City Harvest now !!

In a blink of an eye , I have been in church for 2 years already !
This is where I found my first love . Where I was pulled out from darkness . Where I found out what true happiness means . Where I found my worth and value . Where I found out that there's actually people who truly cares .
What will I do without this church ? Where will I go ? What will become of me ?
It's really scary if all that happens .
But God will make a way ! There's no trial we cannot overcome .


Once a city harvester , always a city harvester . Because we all hold the DNA of City Harvest .

Love and unity - w406 .


On my birthday.. Saturday, June 5, 2010 / 11:11 PM

I want to be your favourite toy .

On my birthday , I want to look like the cutest doll on earth .
Or perhaps makeup like a clown or joker .
Maybe I should stitch up my mouth so I wouldn't talk .
I want to dress up as a gothic lolita . With heels , crosses and chains too .
No one is suppose to be happy on my birthday .
I want to watch the sunrise and the sunset and the moon and stars .
I want a big birthday cake smashed on my face .

Because I'm the biggest fool on earth .

And I wonder if you would remember my birthday . Will you even bother to wish me ?

Won't you.. Friday, June 4, 2010 / 12:18 AM

Send down Your love . For me .
As I call out Your name .


This melancholy has taken over me .
I feel like I am a walking contradiction .
Dear God , what should I do ? I really want to give up .
Why is it that I would yearn for a fairytale that will never come true ?
What is wrong with me ! Why do I cry at one moment and laugh at the next ?
精神分裂 .

But I know and I know , that Daddy God has great plans for me .
So , Zoe shall keep on keeping on .
My breakthrough will come ! Great things are coming my way , that's why things like these happen .
Let me not be defeat by the devil . I shall stand strong with God .

Let the joy of the Lord be my strength ! :)

A little bit of me . Wednesday, June 2, 2010 / 10:58 PM

If I look prettier will you love me again ?

I don't think you would want to continue reading since it will be simply irrelevant .
Like tweeting too much about how I feel would simply let me wallow more so blogging would be a better alternative as it allows me to reflect and think better .
Idk why it's like that but it works this way so yah .

Today , I was suppose to be excited to go shisha with Clare & co. but I had no reaction or whatsoever . Like weird and stoned ? Idk how to explain this feeling .
Met them , felt weird because I was terribly late .
Shisha at Nabins. Mixed fruit . However I sheesha till headache .
All was well . Yiling and Michelle were mad chio and friendly . But Clare shy lah don't want to talk to me .
Nua nua nua until I found out somethings that affected me greatly .
On the spot , I wanted to cry !! But I tahan my tears . How can I cry in front of people I've just met right.....
Then I left them to find dad . I was rather moody because I already wanted to cry but dad kept irritating me with WHAT FOOD TO BUY . FML .

I really thought that I've gotten over you . I really thought I did .
But the truth is , all the while I've only psycho-ed myself and masked my feelings .
Trying to be happy . I tried so hard .
Even when I went for shisha I didn't even let myself remember our sweet memories together .
But upon hearing the news that you liked someone else is simply heart-wrenching .

Can you love me again ? Please ? I promise I will do anything you want .
I wished for it . I hope it will come true .


Today is the 69th day you've left me . I never thought I would love you this much .

City Harvest Church . Made it on Headlines ! / 12:28 AM

I'm sure you guys have heard of the news of CHC probe for the misuse of church funds .
Well , it is definitely a hot topic right now as it's all over the news , including on Twitter and Facebook .
As a member of City Harvest and an avid blogger , I must blog my views regarding this ! Madloves .

Many friends around me are always saying that CHC eats money and such and I'm sure you're happy that police are investigating on this case !
And perhaps you would said justice is done or something . HAH ! But God is just .
God is perfect whereas Man is imperfect . And so is their judgement .

I am proud to say that I am one of those who contributed to the $310million for our new Suntec church building .
Call me moron or whatever . I am totally willing to give and now , I WOULD WANT TO GIVE MORE .

The Suntec building is the dream of the church . And we move as one family .
How is it , in any sense , misuse of church funds when in the first place the dream of the church ?
It's like saving money to buy that expensive LV bag that you've always wanted and when you bought it after saving enough , your mother starts scolding you for spending your money casually .

And if the people that complain are afraid of us are being cheated , for goodness sake , the people contributing to building funds includes a high amount of scholars .
I can also assure you that I am not some old woman who buys magic stones with her life savings .

Also , which do you think is a greater misuse of money ?
To buy gold so you can kneel down in front of it or to buy a building so you can use it for worship ?
+ the building has recreational purposes as well .
Think logically , both having a chance of getting prayers answered and one is to buy something of no purpose while the other is to buy something that is multi-purpose ?


I trust Pst. KongHee 100% and I believe that he is blameless .

When God is for us , who can be against us ! :)