I love strawberries . And this photo is way too random .

Anyway , yesterday I was talking with Dxl about our relationship problems .
It is REALLY TRUE that God answers our prayers .
Sometimes , when we pray , we also need to be wise first .
Dxl told me after his girlfriend broke up the first month and then they patched , he prayed to God that his girlfriend would love him madly .
Now he's having problems because his girlfriend loves him too madly .

As for me , when I was w bee , I prayed out of the desperation of my heart .
That whatever happens , let bee's feeling fade first .
Because at that time , I knew bee loved me a lot and I thought that the hurt for me wunt be as much . I thought I would be able to handle it . Also , I knew that one day we would break up .

I wondered why would God want to answer such prayers of ours ?
Could it be due to the cries and desperation of our hearts at that moment ?
But isnt it ridiculous and naive to be praying for such things ?

I learnt that God dislikes regrets .
I believe God is making me learn , truly , I learnt a whole lot of this .
God doesnt waste a hurt .
I didnt regret what happened in life .

But I wonder as well , I am also the one that cause myself to fall into these tribulations .
I knew it was wrong for this relationship to take place but yet I went on with it . I turned a deaf ear to God's soft prompting and went on with my own desires .
So is this called a worldly brokenness or a godly brokenness ?
Because godly brokenness causes godly sorrows that pushes you to do good things whereas worldly brokenness pushes you to do the wrong things .

Because of what happened I spiralled into depression and did wrong things again , however , I seemed to have learnt godly lessons from this .

Actually , halfway through blogging I found my answer on why did God let me go my own way and choose to take control again after that .
Which I knew that actually everything is under God's control .

Yahweh , my Almighty God , chose to let me go this way despite the fact He knew I would also be hurting Him back .
Just so I could learn , and I believe there's more to this .
I LOVE GOD !
And He actually help me go and standby so many loved ones all around me just to support me .
My Daddy God loves me . ;)


Miracles and breakthroughs !!