the marionette's
romance

“ If God is for us , who can be against us . ”

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Hey peepo ! :D
I'm lying on my bed all ready to sleep .
But before that , I thought of blogging and since BOYFRIEND is using my lappy , I shall use my BB to blog !
You gotta agree it's cool ! Right ? :/

Just take a look at globalisation ! With this competitive mandate .
I am still wondering when will we get the bar code thingy on us .
FYI , the bar code thing-thing is simply this bar code thing that has your completely database !
Like your bank account ? Your medical history ? Or even your virtual life ?
Then do anything just scan that bar code thing can liao !

I still wonder . Like we might be approve to get married to aliens .
Like these things aren't always true , similar to conspiracy stories .


Oooohh , look at the time !
GOODNIGHT !! God bless you lovely readers . ;)


Hey my beautiful people ! :D
Tomorrow is my exams and I doubt Im studying .
Firstly , I am way too full to study .
Secondly , I am way too easily distracted .
Thirdly , I dunt know how to study .

Since I'll be taking my language paper 1 tomorrow , I personally find it reasonable to be blogging right now !
Why ? Simply because Im like , practising my english now !
Persuasive ? Narrative ? Bloggive ?
So far Im still doing well writing my essays in my blogging style .
Like , the teachers dunt even correct me , let's assume there's nothing wrong writing in this manner .
I hope that they wouldnt penalise marks tho .


Okay , LETTER WRITING .

Dear Stranger

How have you been doing ?
I am wondering if we can be friends again .
Friends like how we were in the past .

The truth is , I detest the new you and I'm letting go of the old you .
Will we reconcile and even be good friends ?
It takes two hands to clap , although I can clap with one .

Can we be friends without barriers ? :)

WithLove ,
Zoe

OMG !! Look at the time .
It's time to do QT w BOYFRIEND YUWEN !


I love God .
"It is God who arms me with strength and makes my way perfect. He makes my feet like the feet of a deer; he enables me to stand on the heights. He trains my hands for battle; my arms can bend a bow of bronze. You give me your shield of victory, and your right hand sustains me; you stoop down to make me great. You broaden the path beneath me, so that my ankles do not turn."
- Psalm 18:32-36

This is simply touching ! :')
I love korean MVs , like seriously they always do a good job in bringing the story out .

I love strawberries . And this photo is way too random .

Anyway , yesterday I was talking with Dxl about our relationship problems .
It is REALLY TRUE that God answers our prayers .
Sometimes , when we pray , we also need to be wise first .
Dxl told me after his girlfriend broke up the first month and then they patched , he prayed to God that his girlfriend would love him madly .
Now he's having problems because his girlfriend loves him too madly .

As for me , when I was w bee , I prayed out of the desperation of my heart .
That whatever happens , let bee's feeling fade first .
Because at that time , I knew bee loved me a lot and I thought that the hurt for me wunt be as much . I thought I would be able to handle it . Also , I knew that one day we would break up .

I wondered why would God want to answer such prayers of ours ?
Could it be due to the cries and desperation of our hearts at that moment ?
But isnt it ridiculous and naive to be praying for such things ?

I learnt that God dislikes regrets .
I believe God is making me learn , truly , I learnt a whole lot of this .
God doesnt waste a hurt .
I didnt regret what happened in life .

But I wonder as well , I am also the one that cause myself to fall into these tribulations .
I knew it was wrong for this relationship to take place but yet I went on with it . I turned a deaf ear to God's soft prompting and went on with my own desires .
So is this called a worldly brokenness or a godly brokenness ?
Because godly brokenness causes godly sorrows that pushes you to do good things whereas worldly brokenness pushes you to do the wrong things .

Because of what happened I spiralled into depression and did wrong things again , however , I seemed to have learnt godly lessons from this .

Actually , halfway through blogging I found my answer on why did God let me go my own way and choose to take control again after that .
Which I knew that actually everything is under God's control .

Yahweh , my Almighty God , chose to let me go this way despite the fact He knew I would also be hurting Him back .
Just so I could learn , and I believe there's more to this .
I LOVE GOD !
And He actually help me go and standby so many loved ones all around me just to support me .
My Daddy God loves me . ;)


Miracles and breakthroughs !!

Everyday , I wipe my tears away .
Everyday , reality becomes more brutal .
Everyday , I only dreamt that you would stay .
Everyday ..

Dear Love , it has been 28 days since you left me .
It seems like a nightmare that I cannot wake up from .
Still , my nightmare has to get worse each day .


Now.. I hope I can get sent into Girls Home again .

I can say that I miss you no more . Or much less .

Because I only miss the times we spent and the old you .

It hurts only because the love we shared , can never be refreshed again . Those fairytale moments .

And also because we were so close , and now we are like strangers .

But , I guess , I still love you .

Wunt rant too much on this blog .

I let you go because I love you .

Wellwell , that portrait was published just a day ago .
The artist Michael Shapcott named it Zoe .
Done by acrylic and oils , seriously , this is a really awesome work .
Look at the movement ! The strokes ! The boldness ! ♥
Stunning and captivating . His works brings out a lot .

Anyway , if one day Zoe went missing , what will you remember about her ?
I hope it's something goooood ! Something that would make you smile ! :D

I thought that I was strong . Other than being weak against temptations .
The only thing that could ever bring me down so much would be the loss of my loved one .
The worst part is not the separation , but the loved we once shared cannot be refreshed again . Like , that's it . That's the end .

Now , I put my entire trust in God .
Let my faith . And fervent prayers , ♥


Starting to get up already . Limping my way .

Bring it on .

Alright I edited the photo because I was bored .
I really missed The Stars .
When will we have a K session together ?
我要出专辑的 !! Zoe Perry ft. The Stars - 第几个100天 ?
Quick leh people .

Also , everyone is in a money crisis now .
Realise we dunt have shopping outings anymore ?!
Da'BFFs from shop at town downgrade to shop at CHINAtown or lil india .
SMARTS 省钱王 ! WOW WOW WOW !! $$
One day downgrade to slack at void deck ?
But I think we shudnt downgrade because ION got a lot of freebies to eat .
24/7 , MY HEAVEN ! I tiongxim samples okay !!


Today I manifested and learnt loads of things in church .
For the first time I actually screamed so loudly and uncontrollably .
Well not really me screaming but the demon/spirit of torment inside me .
A whole lot of burden just left me at that moment .
YES !! The gift of manasseh .
Indeed God will never shortchange me .


Private ; Gonna reveal much less personal things now .

I cannot do it . Even after I tried so fucking hard .
I thought I could get over it .
I tried living in denial which brought me down so much .
That period of time was simply repulsive .
Then I realised I couldnt do without you because I loved you too deeply .
How can I actually let you go ?

But you want to be free .
And I know , if I really love you , I would .

I tried . I really really tried .
And I shall love you forever , but in the dark .


If you dunt want the commitment , I hope you still want me only .

As long as there is love , there is hope .
With that little faith of a mustard seed , it is enough to move the mountains .
Even with that slightest amount of love left , it means I have got a chance to hug you again .
I believe that you still love me at least 1% , so I wunt give up .


I shudnt post too much of my real emotions .
I shall end here .

Dear Love . Ok ?

070310 our love story begins ! ♥ ; BOYFRIENDS FOR LIFE .

My boyfriend is the most important so Im gonna cancel my plans with everyone for my boyfriend .
Why ? Because we BFFL mah !! And as Im blogging my affair Cheryl's(More than friends) birthday is reaching !
Not forgetting my sister and BFFFF who are also my most important peeps in life ! :D
Then after that my family ; mee and dee and lil bro that is the most important to me ! :D
Ultimately , my Daddy God is the most most most important ! ♥

All the love of my life . Love is a feeling ! Or lust ?
I love all my girlfriends . It's sad that I dunt really have really close guy friends , halfway through is drift or else is .... Which is irritating !
Truly I admire people with really close guy friends , the best example would be Arhjas and Darren . (Super weird to be mentioning their names)

Sometimes when things happen on me and not on others or on others and not on me , I need to take a look at myself . Because , the problem lies in me .
Blame it on my actions or mindset or character ? Zoe needs to constantly change for the better !
And I think the closest guy friend I can actually relate well to as a friend would be my erzi junyang .
Maybe it's due to our overly crazy characters that we can clique well .

Boyfriend is sleeping over for 2days !! 二人世界 and not threesome . ♥

And the love of my life is God .

Alright , I actually have no inspiration to blog or whatsoever .
Thus , I shall just update about myself although twitter does all that .

I had a fun sisterly time with my boyfriend !! Which is none other than yuwenwen .
Did all sorts of girls thing together !
Im super looking forward to the next sleepover w her . Sleepovers are best w BFFL !

Anyway , today cell group meeting was held at my house for the first time ever !
HIPHIPHOORAY !! ♥
And the word from weiren was and is and will be awesome ! He talked about the importance of having godly relationships . Like bad company corrupts one's character ? And people falling due to the lack of relationships .
I already spotted a few godly friends around me , truly , my truetruetrue friends !!

Then after cgm we had fellowship but dee bought so much food the house turned into a party affair ! Like PS3 , guitars and keyboards and singing , play and play and eat and eat and eat !!
Fellowship is always fun . And the important thing is to maintain the relationships .
♥ my BFFFF and sister ! I miss wanyi the most....

After they left for dinner(OMG) , mei and I had heart-to-heart chats again .
Time flew !! I enjoyed today . So much .
I AM HAPPY WHEN I HAVE WITH GOOD COMPANY . However Im not so good myself .

I need to change my habits and such already !!
Monday is a brand new day of a brand new week . *prays hard*
Like talk serious , I need to start to work hard and be disciplined .
I totally need to reconcile my relationship w God .

Sometimes , having no agenda is the best agenda . - Weiren
And it hit me .

I am not happy at all now .
These relationship things are always getting out of hand .
I will stay out of it . YES . OUT .
Zoe will not get into another relationship until long later .
Also , Zoe wunt go for ttm(teman tapi mesra not to the max) !

The truth is Im not that strong although I look like Im moving on .
And actually all these time I cant get you off of my mind .
I dream of you all the time but every single time I must wake up .
You appear in both sweet dreams and beautiful nightmares , literally .
I still want you even after a nightmare of you . How foolish .
I loved you so much I cannot even try accept others , cannot even do that .
I shud have been trying to prove that you were all that mattered .

Trust . Do you trust the people around you ?

For me , I put different levels of trust on different people .
As well as different types of trust .
It can be in terms of trusting the person w your secret , trusting the person w something you have in them , trusting the person of their actions and the list goes on .

Sometimes , I can trust some people who I've just got to know much more than someone I've known for years .
There's always something about the woman's intuition ! HAH ! :D

Truly , in this world you can never fully put your 100% trust into someone .
Man can fail me but God will NEVER fail nor forsake me . AMEN .


Seriously , it's hard to put your trust on something that still have doubts .

But if I can trust , I will trust .
And I choose to trust in who I want .
And I trust in God .

Dad's rushing my to blog finish !! ARGH , fine , I'll end this short post .

Im trying my best to forget you . I really really am .
But sometimes I really miss you that much .
For now , let's all not be friends .
I know one day we'll reconciliate as friends or even sisters .
And for what happened recently , I brought it upon myself .
I only hope that you would find someone else and not me .


That's all I suppose .


One upon a time , Pixie received a little present from one of her friends .
It was a lovely porcelain piggybank ! :)
Pixie only knew that a piggybank is meant for saving money .

Thus , each day she would set aside an amount of her allowance into her piggybank .
Soon enough , the piggybank became Pixie's most precious possession because it had the most value in it . To her that is .
She loved her piggybank to the max ! She was proud of it .

Pixie was really happy , because she knew that there was a lot of money inside her piggybank .
It was very important to her , simply her everything .
She would not even let anyone get near it .

One fine day , Pixie invited some of her buddies for a slumber party .
The girls played tag in her house , they were screaming and running all over the place .

All of a sudden , Pixie let out a scream ! The girls ran back into her room to find her piggybank smashed into pieces all over the floor .
Pixie was furious and devastated .
The girls left the house as soon as Pixie chased them .

Pixie felt so lost because her piggybank was shattered into pieces .
She tried to put them back together but she hurt herself in the process .

Then she realised all the money all over the floor .
She gave up on fixing the broken piggybank and started picking up the coins and some notes .

And bit by bit , she realised she had a fortune !
Not stingy anymore upon the fact that she had the loads of money .
She spent it happily , treating her loved ones and pampering herself .
Of course , she still didnt get out of the saving habit and set aside an amount .

Finally she knew that there was no point keeping the piggybank if ultimately there was no purpose for it , and that the piggybank must be broken to be able to be used .


There is no point holding on to a relationship when you know for a fact that it must ultimately be broken as well .
Loving your partner wholeheartedly is similar to putting money into your piggybank .
If it's broken , the everything you've sacrificed gets shattered all over the place .
But you can pick them up and invest them on something else that would ultimately bring you more happiness .

Enyun said something impacting yesterday . It's my choice .
Then , it's wise to choose God . Who already has great plans for me ! :)

P.S , sorry for my april fools prank that made so many people worried ! D: ; apologies .