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I made a heck load of mistakes in life , but I can stand up and learn from them and move on .
I cannot change what had happened , but I can change what will happen . ;)

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“ If God is for us , who can be against us . ”

Zoe will let God ! Tuesday, March 30, 2010 / 2:02 PM

So I've gotta get over you .

Today I woke up , cried again .
I had a dream . (A song to sing~)

I was going shopping with w406 and some new friends .
I was having fun , playing , laughing and such . (Wunt elaborate)
Then w406 and friends came to some departmental store .
While chattering away I notice her sitting between some mannequins w that same nua look listening to her mp3 .
I walked over and sat beside her . SHIT THEN I FORGOT WHAT SHE SAID .
Anyway , I remembered I knocked down a mannequin beside her (this is out of point) , then I touched her hand and looked at her .
OKAY I REMEMBER WHAT SHE SAID (Literally as I type) . She asked if this is really what I wanted .
I keep silent , I didnt know then if I meant consent (Silence means consent) , or was I sure about it . Then I decided to kiss her , and we kissed like how we did . Not laji .
Just at that moment Weiren walked passed and I could conclude from my peripheral view that he was disgusted and *shakes head* but was nonchalant at the same time . (Sorry if I cant bring the picture out in words)
But I literally felt ashamed ! I looked down .
I was still holding onto her hand , she didnt hold back (if you know what I mean) .
When I raise my head , she had a poker face .

THEN I WAKE UP ?!

I received a message from her and then I just told her I miss her .
Then I realise this is not what I want , truly .
I mean I'll naturally feel like this because I thought I would never lose her uh .

On this day, God wants you to know...
... that it's time you let go. Yes, of course, you want to control so everything happens in just the way you want it. But at the end of the day, we control nothing, - it's all in God's hands, - has always been, and will always be. So, do what you can, and then let go, and let God handle the rest.

This is literally what happened !
I know that I should let go , and I will let go .
And today Im quite enlightened .
I have so many loved ones all around me supporting me ! So touched .

Now Im picking the pieces of my broken heart and surrendering them to God . And I mean every single piece , I really must not hold on .
And only God can heal broken hearts .
NOT ANYONE ELSE PLEASE .

And also like what Meijuan said , I'm "religious and bisexual" , which is SO IRONIC .
Okay , I dunt know why am I bisexual but you can blame me for not doing anything about it .
And being bisexual gives me experience as well .
I am not exactly that religious but I will look to God , my Saviour .

P.S , ~~I am not gonna get into another relationship until I am stable spiritually .~~ *I might get a rebound .
I will be single these few years and my next boyfriend must be someone that truly loves God too .