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I made a heck load of mistakes in life , but I can stand up and learn from them and move on .
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“ If God is for us , who can be against us . ”

All because I was stupid and disobedient . Monday, March 29, 2010 / 1:55 PM

I realised that I've caused my own hurts .

Right from the beginning ,

I shud have ignored you like everyone else told me to .
I shudnt have given you the slightest chance .
I shud have continued being irritated by the sight of you .
I shudnt have given you the chance to befriend me .
I shud get just let go when I had all the chances .
I shudnt have held on to you despite the pain .
I shud have listened to the rest of the world to leave .
I shudnt have listened to you when you told me to stay .
I shud have just been heartless .
I shudnt have let my heart melt .
I shud have played with you from the start .
I shudnt have placed my entire heart into this .
I shud have left you alone to maintain the relationship .
I shudnt have even tried to protect the relationship .
I shud have given up on you a long long time ago .
I shudnt have believed in your 'love' .
I shud have known that you simply crushed on me .
I shudnt have sacrificed my life for you .
I shud have made use of you .
I shudnt have felt that this relationship would last .
I shud have tortured you since we broke up .
I shudnt be worrying about you .

I didnt .
I did .

Zoe shud be filled w hatred and wrath for vengence . But she didnt ! :)
The moment we started , I knew that we will end .
I prayed to God that whatever happens , let bee's feeling fade first .
GOD REALLY ANSWER PRAYERS .

Soon after , I hurt bee due to the stress I was receiving from my life .
I decided to give my all and I loved bee so much that the love surpassed the love I had for God .
And God is suppose to be priortised in my life .
100% love = 100% hurt .
Everything happened so sudden .
Zoe is sad . Zoe is angry . But Zoe dunt blame .
I know hating you wunt end my misery , although it helps .

Btw school is the WORST place to be in currently . Literally the WORST !!

Zoe is gonna delete delete delete !! No suicidal thoughts please .
Not my will but Yours be done !
Let me decrease and You increase !
In whatever ways , let Your Name be glorified .
I come empty handed . Like a shipwreck .
Change me God . Teach me to forgive to forget and love instead of hate .

I will really let go and let God .

P.S , This post is fully factual . No stretched truth like how I usually blog . Sorry if it's boring .