Blessed .

“ If God is for us , who can be against us . ”

Yet another night/day ! Wednesday, September 30, 2009 / 8:50 PM

I was totally unwell yesterday . Not physically but spiritually as well as mentally .
I fell totally into sins and temptations .
Had this type of weirdweird feelings in my heart , like devil win those type .
I felt totally horrible , the entire day .

*If my zhaborkia is reading this , I AM NOT SAYING YOU !!! Is just me .

Then I was like , I dunt know how to explain .

DOMOKUN , thanks for everything friend , ♥ !

Alright , I shud probably start blogging now !

Yesterday went lepak around w Shiminq zhaborkia , Feedoree , DOMOKUN , Priseelia .

Ate at IKEA ! :D

After eating psycho-ed DOMO and Feedoree t go Wisma w us , shiminq wanted t collect her phone .

Went shopping w them around town , ION , centrepoint all . Then bus-ed to Bugis .

Played Truth or Dare in the middle of Bugis Junction . We just sat there on the floor , also they not as many pple as I thought . Tho we played awhile , it was super steady type . Shiminq and I took out our bras , Feedoree took out her panties all . Then ganchiongs cuz need see if got pple walk past or sorts . Then got security guard come . ♥

Feedoree went off , then DOMO and Shiminq decides to sleepover at my house .

I totally cant concentrate .
We like webcams , lez around , ate mac at midnight , daopok , strip DOMO of her bra , slept in different ways all .
Got that Shiminq lah , I sleep beside her she go and on R&B and dance beside me .
I ended up sleeping w DOMO again !

Shiminq the MOST SIAO one .

Woke up being really tired in the morning .

Then chiong to school and I CANT CONCENTRATE IN EXAM .

I need God , YHWH .

A LITTLE TOO NOT OVER DOMO ! Monday, September 28, 2009 / 8:59 PM

Today was super cute cans . Like SIAO EH .
I was like all over DOMO , totally cant concentrate can ?
I saw her I jitao flashback ALL THE MOMENTS then the atmosphere is SUPER-DUPER AWKARD .
I avoided her at the start cuz I thought that she like also feeling awkard to see me but in actual fact she only 心跳加速 can .

Anyway , I've gotten so much better w Shiming nuer .

It finally gotten better when I decided to talk to her where there's actually NOTHING !

Then I got abit more appetite an ate 1 daopok sushi .
Yah , chat until quite happy ?

We're still friends , and this is another precious friendship that I wunt wanna lose .

THIS THING LIKE LOADS OF PEOPLE KNOW CUZ OF MY STUPID BEHAVIOUR .

Anyway , pia cab w Cheryl & Audrey !
Guitar like abit sian today , idk why ...... ;(

Finally ate at 18chefs ! :D
BROTHER super friendly lah , treat us Strawberry & Mango smoothie .
Mad loves , I MUST BE IN LOVE W HIM !!
Actually , I dun know his name but we just have the same tattoo so he call me sister !

OMGOSH , tomorrow I have many dates , WHICH SHOULD I GO ?!
Pei shiming nuer go town ? Meet up with michelle mei ? Study with DOMOKUN ?

Jitao gained weight .

I believe God will make a way , even where there seems to be no way ! :D
You cant blame me for feeling like this but you can blame me for not doing something about it .

Covenant-Keeping God ! / 4:46 PM

Yahweh !

Praise God ! I was so blessed by this video !
Thanks DOMO .

RAGE Sunday, September 27, 2009 / 9:27 PM

My entire family is at rage .
Recently my entire family keeps on 发脾气 and shouts here and there !
This is so loves lah I tell you .

I guess it's really all my fault , if I never so edgy or easy angry my family also wunt be like that .

Hais .

I have totally no mood for studies at all .
I miss my old friends .

New experience ! / 2:50 PM

THIS IS A WHOLE NEW EXPERIENCE .

It's not bad but bad .

Like not illegal but yeah .

Thanks for being my friend . / 11:34 AM

There are some things I'd really like to apologise for .

To Guailan ,

Sorry I have not been there for you when you needed a listening ear . Yes , you were my BEST and CLOSEST sister . I had loads of memories with you , chatting with you every night till idk what time . But I can tell you that you've been there for me since the beginning of our sisterhood .

I remembered the times we spent together , slacking outside from day to night . Among all of my gans you were my most favourite and precious . Everytime when something happens to you , you'd come and tell me ! It makes me really glad , like you'll really treat me as an older sister . You'll stand up for me , I remember that time where I got an overdose of K .

Never did you complained about me , my bad temper and sorts .

After I came out from SGH you said I've change , and I'm really sorry . I'm sorry that I've neglected you for all the time you needed someone .

Please remember , if there's still anything , you can call me .
Use to be quotes , "Eh , anything msg/call me k ? ;)"

You've also changed , put tattoo and pub and hanging with the good friends but bad influence all .

I dunt know how , but this is entirely my fault . Sorry mei . I am really sorry .

To my other close friends , Yanling , Cheryl , Laikuan , Wanyi all . (You know who you are)

I am sorry for always throwing tantrums .
But you guys still can tahan , I LOVE YOU .
Seriously , especially Yanling and Wanyi , both of you can like really tahan me and still treat me as friend .
I am really glad , I mean seriously .
Thank you .

To my other friends , thanks , for seriously being my friends .
My life would be imcomplete without you guys .

Major OOOOPS ! Saturday, September 26, 2009 / 9:27 PM

Woke up this morning with DOMO beside me .

The first thing we did was laughed , I cant stand this .

I told her I dreamt of her , and she also dreamt of me .

I dreamt that she followed me to my probation seminar talks thingy and I like held her hands .

I remembered we kissed .

She dreamt that she was french kissing Kenneth and I saw and suddenly she was kissing me .

Our dreams are like totally what we were suppose to do the first thing only adding each other into our dreams and kissing .

This is super weird .

I have this excited/nervous feeling .

Keep getting distracted , I cant believe it , my real , nature , is really so disgusting .

I dun think I can ever see DOMO in the same light again .

Talk serious .

So ashamed of myself .

WHY DO I CRAVE TO TRY NEW AND EXCITING THINGS SO MUCH !!!

DOMO AND ME . / 12:27 AM

Today I practically spent the whole day with Domokun ! :D

Within one day , we became like really close !

It started out by feeling like pee-ing at the same time , met Meiling in the toilet and chatted .

After school meet up with DOMO cuz she agreed to come prayer meeting with me !

And true enough , the spiritual atmosphere was really strong .

DOMO herself felt it ! ♥

After that , Jonathan and the rest went home .

DOMO and I played from like 4plus till 8 ? Times flies .

Yes , we kissed in my room ! I like one hongster , the previous one was Wanyi ?
Disclaimer ! This is for fun , I AM NOT LESBIAN .

There're alot more photos !

We were like taking a kissing shot then my mum knock on the door ! ♥

Mum told her to stay and eat .
Soon enough , she just stay in my house . LOVES STEADY PEOPLE !! ♥

Shared loads of personal stuffs , apply all the facial things , moisturing cream , etc .. Laze all over my bed .
I feel SUPER LEZ with her ! Like hug , kiss all .
First time we both did things like that .

Disclaimer , SHE HAS A BOYFRIEND !

Now she's like lying on my bed , DAYDREAM !!
Found another daydreamer !! Vera also another same one .

THIS IS SO FUN ! Been so long since someone slept at my house .

So peaceful now .

So messy ! Thursday, September 24, 2009 / 10:19 PM

ARGH !!

My life's in a mess now(but not as bad as in the past) , all my fault !!
I've no determination , forgetfulness , falls in temptation , procrastination , WEAK and more negative descriptive words .
I have an art exam(mock) and I havent even got half of my preparatory work done !!
Colour schemes , the most important one .
The research and exploration I hack care liaos .
I keep feeling very tired and I am getting fat , like serious , not the normal whinning about weight issues .
I doze off in class unknowingly , thus , missing out on class !! THIS CANNOT HAPPEN !
It's bad enough that I'm 'destined to fail' and now this .
I just have to mess up everything !
Totally forget this and that , NO SENSE OF RESPONSIBILITY ! This is totally not my time to take up commitments .
I even forget what is more important !

Now my handphone is totally screwed , dun bother contacting me via sms .

Everything is not in place !
What to do with my CSO ? My exams ? Studies ? Quiet time ? Guitar ?

I am SO NOT DISCIPLINED ENOUGH and I really need a planner as well as time management .

I shud totally pay someone for this , I think it's worth the investment .

Photos + Caption . Wednesday, September 23, 2009 / 9:13 PM

Most awesome friend !

kisskisskiss .

Original uniforms !

Totally STC !

Adeline looks nice here ! :D

MAD LOVES !
My uniform is too BIG for Sunthari .

Newtown ? :D

They have seen me grown .

I love them .

Some updates . Tuesday, September 22, 2009 / 12:45 AM

Today was a horrid day , but it ended well with Wanyi !!

My parents woke me up with one of the most horrid quarrels that I havent been hearing for quite some time .
FILLED WITH VULGARITIES .

In fact , my family was in a terrible mood , I couldnt stand that atmosphere until I decided to leave the house and swim alone .
Yeah , I swimmed till there was absolutely no one in the pool .
Then I indulge myself in KFC , I actually completed the Cheezy BBQ Meal .

My dad went to fetch Wanyi to my house .
We had one of the best study time ever !

I'll be updating photos soon !
Till now my family is still shouting away , things are going back to the past .
Maybe I shud too ?

Prepare . Monday, September 21, 2009 / 12:33 AM

He shall reign forever and ever .

I have a feeling , we're , or at least I am .. Gonna face tough times .

Trials and tribulations ; those types will cry all .

Faith WILL be tested , I'm already shaky .

Now seems to be the time when God prepares a plant or maybe something .

Sekali I havent even experience the BIG FISH .

I need to press in more .

Perhaps , I just havent desire Him as much ?

I'm still very edgy .

I cant stand it , I'm so sensitive .

I even get angry over the slightest thing .

Even when you give a not happy/dunsmileatme face .

Yes , of course .

Till NOW , I'm still tempted to smoke , find problems all .

But thank God , I still have supports .

I NEED TO BE PREPARED .

HELP .

Problems that I'm facing will clear soon .

FOR NOW !!

I NEED HELP IN MY STUDIES , I MEAN TALK SERIOUS .

I keep having this feeling that my destiny is to fail , like , really cannot help those kind .

Everything , I'm not able to perform well for tests and sorts .

I just like , FORGET . So simple .

(vulgar) , people just thinks that I'm lazy .

THIS PERIOD OF TIME .

I HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE TELL ME THINGS THAT I KNOW AND THINK AS IF THEY ARE SOME MENTOR AND JUST SUGGEST TO TELL ME THEY ARE RIGHT , LIKE REASONS FOR EVERYTHING .

I WRONG LARH I KNOW .

SOMETIMES , JUST LISTEN .

People open mouth to try to share right ? Need reason out so much meh ?

Can see you not happy , is my fault I guess .

Speaks at wrong time .

Yeah , this world is imperfect , my God is PERFECT . Amen .

So imperfect that i wrote previously thank God for fellow supports/friends , now I feel like they're all some stinky type of support .

WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME !!

Sucha bad ass mood swing .

Sun Ho - Fancy Free ! Saturday, September 19, 2009 / 10:11 PM

SUN HO - FANCY FREE !

This is totally cool man !
So loves Sun ! :D

We're in this together . / 1:50 PM

Yesterday was great I suppose .

Actually , the week was sloppy , heavy , sian all .

I wasnt in much of a good mood , edgy , but still , able to laugh around in school .

I kept dozing off or daydreaming in class .

Felt a little negative , failed tests , unprepared , kept forgetting .

Worst of all , I felt that I cant find God or something and I felt that I was losing faith .

I cant feel His presence , I read the Bible and I kept reading things that are unrelated .

I didnt have faith in the things I do .

The fleshy part of me was okay .

However , I was spiritually DRY !!

But I just know that God is watching me or something .

Still he bless me that I may not go off track .

I smoked thru the art exam although it was a super disgusting drawing .

And another time some step-lian from BMSS just go and xl me until I really bth but thank God Minyee was there to calm me down .

True enough , it was just another trial and tribulation that we're all going through together .

On friday itself , many of us dragged ourselves to prayer meeting .

(It was raining and the weather was super good for sleeping)

I admit , this was the MOST dry prayer meeting I ever had and I nearly fell asleep during it .

We were all disappointed , I mean , for the past few prayer meetings we all had holy laughter , fell under the presence , cried and sorts .

After this we all shared about the week we had .

Turns out , all of us were feeling the same , like seriously SAME !

Feeling down , tired , making loads of mistakes all..

We believe that we're gonna have a breakthrough soon ! AMEN .

AHBUNEHNEHSONG Thursday, September 17, 2009 / 11:46 PM

AhBuNehNeh Song !

I kept singing this during SS lesson .

Skyrider's Iphone ! Wednesday, September 16, 2009 / 8:55 PM

I have nothing to blog about .
School is freaking boring , knowing that today is still wednesday sians me even more .
Meijuan and I were like planning all the Truth or Dare thing !
I am so excited ! I really need to pray for this .

Promise we wunt do harmful things ! :D

Anyway , since I have nothing to blog about I've decided to blog about Skyrider's Iphone ! ♥
Okay , it's just the Iphone thingy that plays music on the right hand side of this blog .
I change it's song according to my mood .
And I'm feeling so nonsensical and random , thus , these choices of songs .

The first one is Temptation .
And YES , it is an Indian song ! Renee & Ain (dormmates) used to sing this all the time .
I just suddenly thought of inside.....

Next is another Spongebob Squarepants esp but in 3D !! :D
Quite nice to watch you know !
This was out of random-ness ~♥

And then is a stupid paikia song ! HAHAHA !
This song is super random therefore , bringing humour .
I like got this idea cuz of Charles ..
Like he keeps playing that 369 emotion sounds in msn .

Then is this malaysia rap or somthing .
I just stumbled upon it then .. yarh .

Next is a malay song !
This is nice you know !! ♥ , it's called Ketahuan !

Truth OR Dare !

You are the One , we're living for ! ♥

Up for a game ? Tuesday, September 15, 2009 / 5:00 PM

Liking things like this doesnt mean that I'm a lesbian !
It just means that I love to have fun ~
I mean , I everything also MUST try one , other than jumping off the building or other stupid stuffs that will make me lose my life .

ANYONE UP FOR TRUTH OR DARE THIS COMING HARI RAYA ?
(For steady people !)
*Minji says I keep wanting this just cuz I wanna kiss a girl , oh well , I admit ~! But I wanna play it as a game and not anything else .....

There'll be drinks ? Snacks and most importantly FUN !
Must be super high when playing this larh !! :D
And there'll be 2 tins/container , 1 for TRUTH and the other for DARE .
Questions and dares will be written down by players and then put into the containers ..
And the oldfashionedspinningthepen method will determine the victim ! (mualalaas)

Expect the wildest .

Anyone who backs out will get a penalty of _____ !
Tell the truth ! :D

XX and KK kiss video ! Saturday, September 12, 2009 / 12:59 AM

Xiaxue kisses KayKay !! ♥

Mad loves !! The kiss was like super hot .

I want to try also leis , OMG ..... Maybe I shud just force Wanyi into this , and we'll never be friends again ! ♥ (like more than best friends)
I totally like block my brother , he was like OMGOMG and laughing away !
My brother laughs at such scenes , but how else can he react ? (:

I waited for this video larh , I totally never expected them to french kiss until like this . Like talk sirius !

Beach photos . Friday, September 11, 2009 / 2:04 PM

Beach ! / 12:06 AM

Totally had fun today !!
But I shall just sum it up in point form (due to laziness)

Ate waffles with Diana .
Shopped madly for kites ! :D
Bumped into Junk , Angmoh that group in Sentosa !
Totally failed in flying kite , :( ..
Jumped into the dirty sea !! (dominated by seaweeds)
Talked dirty w/ Diana and Meijuan ~
Met the guys we met on the train !
The bengs tried to make friends with us .
Yanling they all damn shys .
My striking red tube was freaking striking thru my white tank top !
Play soccer awhile only .
Stripped in the bathroom (not totally)
Left for KFC dinner !!
Like met the bengs again ! o_o
The girl among the beng like bueygeyyan us , smoke then sat ki one kind .

Loves larh , I shall post the few photos soon .

muacks , PRAYER MEETING IS TOMORROW !! xoxo .

The day's coming to an end , tomorrow would be better . Wednesday, September 9, 2009 / 11:22 PM

There's about half an hour more to the end of 090909 .
Today is sucha normal day .
At least I got 5 days mc !! MAD LOVES !

I'm totally in love with the song The Blower's Daughter !

MAD !!!

EMO ? / 1:28 PM

I actually dun wanna stead .
I mean serious , if you see this , mean I'm actually playing .
Like for fun .

DISCLAIMER !!
Not serious relationship or sorts !

Btw , I LOVE DAMIEM RICE ! ♥♥
His songs are like super-duper nice ?
Quite sad songs , like 9 Crimes and The Blower's Daughter !

Sad songs makes me feel good.... Like EMO ?

There're still other songs like Cannonball and Unplayed Piano which are equally nice and EMO !

Loves ttmax ! ♥

Anyway , Meijuan and I were talking about emo people .
Then there're like some people that JUST HATES EVERYTHING .
We tried to act emo , but , we just cant stand it !! I mean sirius .
Maybe we're meant to love everything instead of hate ? ♥
supervulgarandhateseverythinginthisworld was inspired by one of Meijuan's scene hair haters .

Seeing people hate others for a particularly hopeless reason entertains me so much !
超爱这种 ! ♥ ; xoxo .

Anyway , I tot that emo is getting out of trend ?
Maybe I am wrong ?

like.....
*emos* who cares . nobody cares . yay for emo . (solemn)

LOVES THIS TYPE LARH !!!! ♥♥ , hugs and kisses ! MUACKS .
I think that emo-ing makes me happy !
No wonder when I sad I go emo then miraclously , I BECOME HAPPY !
MAD LOVES ! noo i mean , mad hates . I hates this world .

Thank God for Jesus ! ♥
If not , I'm really like this . PHEW !

For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son , that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life . - John 3:16 !
You see , LOVE !! That's why we shud all like go around and spread love !

Hatred stirs up dissension, but love covers over all wrongs. - Proverbs 10:12 !
The power of LOVE !!

Love you all ! xoxo .

MAD LOVE PHOTOS ! Tuesday, September 8, 2009 / 10:51 PM

Firstly , some photos from Marina Barrage !

Israel's guitar ! :D

Chio hand .

Poor girl aka Zining !

Sheryl aka NOOOOO !

BEST !! MY CRUSH'S BROTHER !

Standard one .

Israel !!

Enyun !! Qiming looks damn toot with specs larh !

LOVES !

Eating away .

This is only half .

My girlfriend .

Next , some photos with Da'BFFs !! (i forgot take pictures with meijuan)

Cocked-eye .

Calbury ?

Biker Jackets !

Diana's my childhood friend .

SIAO 爱我的 photos ! ♥

Loving it TTMAX ! Monday, September 7, 2009 / 10:12 PM

Yesterday's fly kite and picnic was totally awesome ttmax !!
I'm like gonna blog a whole lot of pictures when I get it ?
ASSS , ZINING I NEED THE PICTURES !!

Anyway , today went out awhile with Diana to fareast after reporting .
We like bought a half-sleeved biker jacket ? I loved it ttmax manzxcbzxzbz !!
Then we bumped into Shanice , Yanling and Meijuan !!!
We must like so go out more often ? LOVES !

I had to like go off for guitar class ? SO ASSS !

But went to find them at bugis awhile then went home !
Bought a top at bugis for $8 !! YAY FOR CHEAP BUYS .

I reallyreally need to stop eating so much ! I mean serious.....

Prayer ! Friday, September 4, 2009 / 11:19 PM

Today school was quite depressing , I've no idea seriously .
But I'm guessing I didnt draw enough strength from God and thus , became really exhausted .
(MY FAULT , I know , I shud have been more disciplined)
I just felt like a left out person everywhere !
Like I dun fit in any groups at all ? Serious .
I just ..... DIED for a moment .
Somehow , abit guilty , I vent it on slantface although she was quite a bitch yesterday .
She was quite upset too .

I realise what I did was really wrong .
This emitting wrong signals to people especially in the evangelistic form .

After school , seeing new christains in school so on fire for God really touched me a WHOLE LOT .
What a blessing and joy to see such things ! I mean serious .
Seeing meiling going on a FULL fast , dedicating herself to God and still so much makes me go ..... (Indescribably yet positively joyful feeling)
Still vera finally have the courage to come for prayer meeting and cried so much .
Shenyi and Shermaine fell under the presense !
THIS IS JUST AWESOME ~

Anyway , I'm tired of pranking with Jonathan already .
TIO REJECT UNTIL BTH .
He is so ....... Kenneth is way cuter and hotter and gentlemen and nicer voice than him .
I am getting MAN-crazy , maybe because the super chio 090909 is coming ?

RAWR !
The effectiveness of a fervent prayer .
I reallyreallyreallyreally must do this , I mean serious .
God has a plan for me .

REKINDLE THE FIRE IN ME !!!!

PRAY .

Anyone on 090909 ! / 11:12 PM

I WILL STEAD WITH ANYONE ON 090909 BECAUSE THE DATE IS CHIO .
There's still some requirements of cuz , like cant too CMI or ungentlemen .

The chio date ! Thursday, September 3, 2009 / 7:51 PM

I have been daydreaming for a reallyreally long time !
Dont even know what am I thinking of , anyway , today was quite vague .
I dun wanna care about my results , I just wanna do what is more important !
I believe that I will be able to promote . I BELIEVE .

Anyway , back-to-back Zoe Da'Love .

09/09/09 is coming ! I must quickly find one guy to stead with then break up another day .
That number is so pretty .
By then you'll see many pple with msn names stating 'Our love story begins on 090909' or things like that . ALWAYS ONE !
But this type of thing cannot blame one larh , the date so chio , love story begins on such date can show-off mah .
And if missed this date need to wait another 1year 1month 1day leis ! Next year ? [10.10.10]

Examples ..

"Eh, my girlfriend and I stead on 09/09/09 , chio hor the date?"
"I'll never forget this day - 09.09.09! "
"[090909] - This is when our love story begins ."
"09.09.09 - Baby, I love you ."
{090909} <- simple

Alot larh !

I am veryvery tired recently . I need my strength from God .

NEWBUSNUMBERNEWBUS .

P.S - Dun ask me find Junlong , I am still secretly love Jonathan hor .