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Bounce back !
Friday, October 23, 2009 / 9:03 PM
Behind the masks .
Although I've been gone for a day and I think barely anyone noticed except for my good friends !
But I'm still glad I'm feeling better .
It all started .
Tuesday , I went to meet up with DOMOKUN , Cheryl and Yanling ! Meijuan came afterwards . That day itself , I wasnt feeling really well .
Still , finding jobs and all was not that bad . Pray hard is all I can do I guess .
The night , I felt really scare all of a sudden .
This fear that engulfed me wasnt new , as a matter of fact , it was familiar .
I used to have this fear all the time when I was younger , all the way till I was about 14 .
Every night , I feared greatly .
I cant sleep properly , I dare not sleep alone , I would cry nearly every night .
That actually went on for years and years .
I'd wake my mum up to accompany me , and of cuz she'll get really mad for waking her all .
Never free from this fear until I stayed in CHC ! :D
Wednesday , morning was disgusting and I still felt weak .
DOMO and I thought that we could escape Chua if we went in later but instead we've gotten TRIPLE KILL ! ;O
Chua , Wong and Schooldog due to haircheck .
That wasnt bad , my parents imediately got the wrong idea and became sad .
Then my results were dreadfully disappointing , and the worst blow was my english .
I think I've never felt worst at that moment(although there were worser times) .
Resist but finally teared a little .
Got better in awhile but had to face detention .
Then this time Chua made things difficult for us , and I got niam-ed by him .
DOMO , Cheryl and Yanling came my house for buffet .
After eating they went home and I waited for the officer to come .
Parents came home and in awhile my PO came .
Everything was awkard because we need to present ourselves well..
Talked to results , I was like 'Fail' .
PO left and my parents were buzzing for idk how long , I didnt even spoke a word .
I was sitting there , just me and their rants in the living room w/o the tv or sorts .
I slept earlier that day because I was really too weak to carry on .
That moment I felt that I didnt want to live .
Due to all the sad misunderstandings , and all the wrong smses at all the wrong times .
Had a nightmare .
A few scenes of everyday life with buddies like Cheryl , Yanling and DOMO . I was looking at them through a broken mirror and everything was spinning and spinning and I couldnt take it in my dreams that I kept screaming and screaming whereas in reality I was whinning until my mum woke up and touched me and I was having really high fever .
Thursday , I was too weak to wake up despite really wanting to wake up .
I was in a very terrible state , I felt sad and weak .
But I also rmb-ed 2 super random pple , Maykuan and JiaJun .
Anw , mum came home as she had throat infection and thought that she was gonna be sick soon .
Then bought me to polyclinic that SUCKED !
I still had to walk and wait so looooonnnggggggg , I was dying already please .
Doctor said that my fever is most likely caused by stress , how true .
However , I got better by evening where DOMO , Yanling and Cheryl cheered me on .
I WAS SO TOUCHED BY THEIR CARE AND CONCERNS FOR ME !!
They helped me recover faster than human , praise God !
Because of them , I slept so well . I felt happy .
Yes , I sure did . Sweet dreams .
Today is friday and I am feeling so much better .
There's still a small factor of sadness but what is this small pisai !
I went for a swim , 20laps and felt great .
God is GREAT and let Him increase and me decrease .
