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a story. Tuesday, October 7, 2008 / 10:06 PM

here's a story !
hopefully u all can read entirely.

a girl tries to seek attention, but failed.
she was jealous of her younger brother, getting all the love & care.
she got all the rubbish.
soon, she became invisible. she tried all her best to let her parent 'see' her, but she alwaes failed.
during the primary skul daes,
she tried waes to impress mummy, however hard she tried it wasnt good enuf.
she got 65, mummy was furious.
she got 75, mummy sae need improvements.
she got 84 for english, 92 for science, 83 for maths, 78 for chinese , daddy was satisfied & mummy was showing off.
didi came into the same skool as her, scored 60plus, he was awarded with a new gameboy.
i got nothing. despite scoring well.
everi1 liked didi much more dan her. she was transparent yet ugly. didi was a pretty face.
everi1 tot didi can do everiting well, unlike his stupid sister, a retard.
she cries at veri little things, onli little things dat her parents did. but nt everi other.
physically strong however emotional frail.
she turns to seek attention in the next in skool as she spends alot of time there.
she found some close fwenbs & decided to stay with them as BFF.
she was still lonely sumhow, but she loved skool cuz her best fwenbs were dere.
she only loved fwenbs. fwenbs dat can see u.
& thruout, the only reason that was able to maintain her was church things.

sec skool.
no more primary skool fwenbs, new grp of fwenbs. it was hard to adapt, she wasnt exactly cool & sorts.
her new fwenbs were different frm primary skool fwenbs, however dey were still a good bunch.
sec2, she had new classmates. none was close, but she had a close fwenb frm primary skool, candy. but she tot of her differently during sec1. however dey still made it 2gt in the end, despite frictions.
dis time, she was still rlli lonely & she amazingly obsessed wib attention.
the class hated her. she felt like everi1 hated her.
she picked up smoking due to curiousity, her fwenbs tried it. her 1st stick was stolen from her grandmother.
she began to slash her wrist, it felt weird but fun.
den pple asked her abt it, she felt uneasy but sumhow good, she was receiving attention.
she stopped awhile but she did it on her thighs everi nite. she felt alived.

she began to rebel, a total defiance. she felt power with dis.. & oso attention given to her.
she oso got to noe some outside pple.
she loved doing all these, until her parents began to be absolutely disappointed with her. she died down at dis a little as she wanted her parents to love her.
dey dint love her, but tried to control her more. stripped awae her freedom.
her fwenb oso help her quit smoking & she bcame slightly better due to more fwenbs.
dat time she loved tuition cuz of the noise she can make, especially with her fwenbs.

sec3 started, she felt disgusted by skool. she hated skool in everiwaes.
she met some new fwenbs. picked up smoking again, as well as drinking addiction.
she loved to smoke & drink & slack & make noise. she loved to be aniwhr else but home.
to her, home was nothing more dan a place to sleep & free meals.
she enjoyed coming home l8 as whad she does str is go to bed.
she doesn give a damn abt her life, she enjoyed wasting it awae. she found no meaning in living.
fwenbs & qans seemed to be her everithing.
she got in alot of trouble, basically her life was in a total mess.

soon, she grew alot of suicidal tots.
she tot of dying everidae, she rlli hoped to die.
she cried & cried. her emotional dmg was so overwhelming.
she wanted to die on her mother's bdae, but she did not have the courage to.
also her fwenbs all showered concerns, she was touched.
a sentenced made by this tall girl, "Do you know where you'll go?"
it was impactful.
in the end she ton at her qan mummy's hse, but she parents were overly worried.
dey annoyed all her fwenbs.
she finally decided to go home, wib her mother's bdae present. it was an empty cup.

she continued to waste her life awae.
continued to commit crimes & sorts. she wan2 feel alive.
1dae her parents looked for her & found her drunk at sum place.
she dint care much.

1dae she decided to please 1 of her best fwenb's offer to church.
she rlli dint wan2 go, but she onli wan2 pleased her best fwenb..
she enjoyed herself at church & decided to go for another time, & soon the services & pple dere touched her in sum different wae.
it was the love, the unfailing love of God. God touched her in such a significant wae.
His mercy & love pour out & saved her, gave her a new life & salvation.
however, she wasnt such a strong christain, she was confused & uncertain, she still went on wib her fwenbs.

1dae she tried to sniff glue.
it was super high & dreamy. she continued it. alot of them in a plastic bag.
she loved doing it wib her fwenbs if nt alone at home.
she loved the feeling.

on the other hand, spiritually she was on fire & sumtymes she was rlli low.
she was easily tempted, yet she can get into God's presence easily.

1dae 1 of her fwenb tempted her to take a high level of drugs, she did it.
she felt high, but nt as happy.
she knew it wasnt good.. she needed God.

she now knows,
she needs to persevere, God's love for her was so great.
the love that found her when she was young.
& all this while her parents loved her more than ever, only she dint see it.
all this while she was so blessed.
& salvation perfected it. praise God !

now she's an extremely happy girl ! i testify ~